I lost one of my best friends this weekend...

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...Dreaming on an E92....
One of my best friends passed away on Sunday early afternoon, this is one of the hardest things I've ever had to deal with :( :passout::crazy::help:

This last week he was feeling sorta off I guess, just headaches and what not. Then Friday morning he vomited up some blood and his mom rushed him to the hospital. I don't know what exactly happened there, but soon after he was air lifted to Oakland Children's Hospital, the doctors and nurses there were absolutely amazing and did everything possible to keep us calm and to save his life, but I guess there was only so much they could do, you know? He was diagnosed with Lukemia (sp) and had a massive hemmorage on the way to OCH and he fell into a deep coma... I saw him for the last time Saturday night and I just had so much hope that he was going to make it through everything, and I just felt like he could hear me and knew I was there, even though they all said he had no brain activity. I kept telling myself "There's only so much a machine can do, he has to be here"...

I've known him for a number of years but we never hung out much until the past few years, and it's something else that he chose to spend the last few years of his life with me and his family and a select few friends. We usaed to complain night and day about never getting off our asses and doing something, but now I guess there was a reason behind all that. We spent as much time with Pete as we could, and I'll never regret those times, ever.
It's something else, just thinking about how many lives he touched and the amount of people who cared for him, it's truly something else. We were a close knit group before but now I really see who we are and why we've stuck together over the years. It all happened so fast that I know there's a reason behind it all. I just still look up and think he should be there with us, it's still harder than hell to believe he's not here with us. On Saturday night me and my friend Ryan were the last two to talk to him before his family on Sunday. We told him it wasn't ever going to be good-bye, just see you later... Oh, he was only 18 too, shoulda' been turning 19 on the 29th of this month. We're gonna throw him a birthday bash he couldn't ever forget this year, we're going to celebrate his life and how awesome of a person he was, and we'll do it right :rockon

I don't know what else to say, I'm starting to get a bit choked up here, but I'll be popping in and out today. Thanks in advance for any condolences lefgt here, I know it doesn't help much but knowing that people out there care makes the healing process a whole lot easier :redface:

Take it easy guys...
Dolan
 
Dolan, I am truly saddened to read of your loss. Enjoy the memories of the times you had together . . . that's how I'm trying to get through the holidays
 
Sorry to hear of your loss. I lost my best friend when I was 15, he was 16, was the closest thing to a brother I ever had. It's not easy. Just remember all the good times you had together. Hang in there!
 
Hang it there!! It just does not make sense but it is a reality that one must live with. Having real friends and the way those friends remember someone is a good way of honoring your friend and the friendship that you shared together.

I know this does not really help you with your loss but please know that there are people on this forum that feel for your loss very deeply. Thanks for sharing your feelings. You hit me hard with your honest emotions.
 
BlueZero said:
Sorry to hear of your loss. I lost my best friend when I was 15, he was 16, was the closest thing to a brother I ever had. It's not easy. Just remember all the good times you had together. Hang in there!
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Yeah, I know what you mean. My friend Ryan has never had a brother, he was like the cloest thing to one he ever had. He's just devastated, as are the rest of us too. Ian, Pete's olderr brother, is almost like a brother to me, and when I heard him all choked up I couldn't even hold back anymore, it's just crazy. It's not right, it's so far from it that it's got to be unimaginable. But there's gotta be a reason behind it. When his heart started failing I figured he just told us it was his time. But it made me think of how fortunate I am to be here with all my heart complications from when I was a little kid, I'm just happy to be here today and that we all have each other. I keep thinking about that, that is how we have each other still. It's crazy that our group is as tight as it is, but that's what we're all there for.

We all decided we're going toi get inked up in his memory, I haven't a clue what to get though. Someone brought up the idea of matching tattoes and that's great, but I think it should be your own individual tat, so it shows how we each individually remember Pete. The times I already miss the most are when we all hung out doing nothing but talking about life, games, whatever was on our minds. I want to do something that resembles our whole group just "chillin'", I guess it'll come to me eventually.

Thanks again for your condolences guys, it means a lot :cheers:

cwcad: I know that there's folks here on DC that care, that's why I felt it was appropriate to post on here. We might not all know each other personally but we're still a clost-knit group, ya know? :D
 
I'm very sorry for your loss. I also lost a best friend when I was younger, and it seemed to hurt just as much as it did when a family member past away. We share so much with our best friends that we don't with others. Remember the good times, and throw one heck of a party!
 
Dolan

Real sorry to hear that, I'm close by if need anything...fellow detailer!

Send me a PM if so
 
My heart goes out to you.I too lost a friend at a young age. It's devasting.I think of him often which is always followed by a laugh or a smile.I was truly blessed to know this boy.Stay close and find comfort in your friends.
 
Sorry brother for your loss :( I know how it feels. Just lost my brother a few month ago and he would have been 42 3 weeks after. God bless and keep your chin up. I feel in my opinion they are in a better place. My brother also suffered for over 2 years and went into a coma then died 2 days later. I Know he would be looking down telling me no more pain anymore with a big smile :) . Well thats how I look at it. Its hard day by day but I know he is pain free :)
 
Coastal Eddie said:
He is still there with you, and he always will be.:)
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And you're 100% right. I know he's there with us and he'll always be there, but it just won't ever be the same. I'll miss is voice, his laugh, his endless sarcasm and sense of humor, everything. We already decided that most of his stuff we'll keep around and continue to use, that way he's always there with us doing what we all enjoyed, and that's what matters most is that we never forget him. I can't wait till we can all look back and just laugh at all the good times and bad times that we've had. We're all there for each other, and the fact that all of his family wants us there and to be a part of everything is just so amazing, his mom always tells us we're not just friends, we're part of the family and feel like her own. I feel really fortunate to have people like that in my life, I don't know what I'd do if I didn't have my family and friends. And it's times like this when you really do realize who cares about you and who you care for the most, it's really something else :)
 
Sorry to hear about your friend,life is short and we never know when or why.I lost my daughter last summer when she drowned.Life is tough,but I have a an 18 yr old son and I always tell him tough times don't last tough people do.

Tom C
 
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Thanks for sharing and we are so sorry for your loss. Tom C, so sorry to hear about your daughter. I can't imagine how hard that must be. My heart goes out to you both.
 
It's been a year today since he passed... But we're staying positive, right? :redface:

It's hard as hell to think about, especially thinking "Holy xxxx, it's already been a year?"

I've got some beers to drink in his name tonight for sure :cheers:

Dolan
 
Sorry for your loss. Things like this always remind us how fleeting and fragile life is and how important it is to appreicate every day, the special people in our lives.
 
Dolan, my sympathies are with you. It is hard to loose someone close and it takes a long time to heal. Your good memories of him will help you now and for the rest of your life. It sounds like he had a good life, albeit far too short.

Best wishes...
 
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